So much to think about; so little time.

For most of my adult life I have dealt with life-crushing dissappointments by turning my back on the person who constantly hurt me. I even said over and over "I forget but I don't forgive" and the second, "No good deed goes unpunished." This was easy when my ex-husband got a divorce and a new wife. It was real easy when the church pastor misled me and the congregation and ran off with the church secretary. It was relatively easy when I finally retired and the administration chose to honor my 36 year work by behaving in less than a cordial dismissal. And now, it came down to my sister and her children. I don't want to walk off from them.

So I need to figure out a better way to deal with forgiveness. I am a seminary graduate and I can read theological journals with the best of them. The trouble is that I am not happy with dealing with disappointment as I have done in the past. I love my sister and know she will never ask for forgiveness because I learned how to deal from her.