Lay Aside the Pain for a day or two..

The day is upon us when it is time to have to see my ex-husband again. I was in dire straits all yesterday thinking about what I have to live through and no matter how much I try to ignore the pain, it hits me in the gut. I am allowing him still to live in my brain and haunt me rent-free.

The thing I hate more than anything is that it makes me want to be somewhere else--anywhere--but here when it should be the happiest of times. It is my fault but I cannot escape it no matter how I insulate myself or buck up. I cannot escape my psyche. I keep trying. Lord, knows how I try!